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Dear my bloggy woggy....
hmmmph gw bingung, kemaren Oom gw sms dengan nada yang gak enak, yaa gara2 sebuah wacana membingungkan yang gw lontarin ke salah satu orang "brengsek" yang sok alim... ya ampuun please deh...kenapa keluarga besar gw gak mau menerima kebimbangan seorang anak usia 22...arrgh, yang gw cari kebenaran dalam kepercayaan gw, bukan pembenaran dari orang2 yang egosentris...tiba2 kepercayaan gw berubah, ya itu karena pencarian gw dah ketemu... lagian itu urusan personal, eeh malah nyokap gw yang dimarahin, hmmmph, pola fikir orang tua yang demokratis bikin gw seneng, tapi keluarga besar gw yang terlalu kolot, bikin gw besok gak pengen kumpul silaturahmi bareng, ga males dibombardir sama pertanyaan, n gw gak mau bohong... coz ini masalah keyakinan... hmppph...
God I'm stuck!!

Gw potong rambut, umm lumayan extreme sih...hehe liat yach... hehe tapiiiiii tapiii lagiii..maaf kalo keliatan sok imyut hehehe

kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen..... kok dia gak tau juga siih!!!! emang gak jelas sih..kalo dijelasin makin gak jelas..tapi yang bener2 jeas adalah gw kangeeeeeeeen...!!!

Shiiiiiiit...I hate this situation... today I look the hallmark chanell, I wach a romantic film, I see a simple nice and beautifull wedding, shitt why I should think about him, and I have a fantasy walk on the altar, with my father, and we say our promises together with love...arrrGGGH I feel such a dummy girl..silly I never ever can be together with him (and he say that to..umm our chanc to be together is too small) why I feel so pathetic... he obviously doesn't love me at all he just like me because he feel that "can live with me" not "cannot live without me".... I ever have a talk with him bout our relationship, and he said that "I'm comfort with you, but we have a lot of differences that make us coud'nt be together" but actually he just dont love me, umm I wish he came to my room suddenly if I cry and, struggle to keep our beautifull relation, no matter the distance is.... ummmh..but it cannot realize if in this relation just have one love (just from me) coz love is like a bird, that can't possible fly with one wings....hmmmph...
This dilemma make me wanna go to the physiciatric..